We all stand
on the shoulders of whoever came before us; we speak of ancestry or land these
are our two shoulders. We are the living legacy of the past. We embody and act
the blessings and the curses, the lessons and the resistance of everything that
made us be what we are today.
We think this
is always beautiful when we place the monocles to our life and see our good
deeds and wonderful aspirations and it all goes grim when we expand our vision
and start feeling hot, heavy and delirious with the condition of the world. In
those moments we don’t see how our self-doubt is used to the vantage of the
rulers of the worlds that do not want you to be comfortable in your little cave
of light and darkness. We are always called out, to give an opinion or a
judgment – and if we don’t, life do it for us when we are in any form of cue or
exchange any idea rooted in difference and concord.
We start to
point fingers to acts generated by bad character and greed, yet we don’t see
the character flaws and hidden envy in ourselves. We easily see the wrongdoings
done in our society, by the politicians that lie to us and the colliding world
views that crash cities and ideas with ideals and promises of holiness and
change.
We rarely see
these are appeals to our holiness and our thirst for change…
We are all the
time distracted from paying attention to our own character, our own deeds, words
and actions, but we have no problem striding our own white horse, dress the
armour of a rpg knight or raise a cowardly face in an ivory tower of superiority
made by our own illusions, fears, dramas and aspirations.
It is all
just sad, and it gets even sadder when we glorify our failures and our greed, our
envy and our lack in stating we are the loving product of our ancestors... because
then we would need to admit that we are not from a perfect pedigree but from shafts
of wheat that was not always good nor healthy. Our history as a singular being,
our history as a human is never a dance of perfection, rather a kaleidoscope of
changing contrasts.
Because we
all have bad, rotten and evil ancestors and the vibration and spirit that made
them make mess, chaos, bring sadness, war and turmoil to our lives still lives
in us as moths and butterflies fighting for the attention of fire and water. It
is just the way it is and they find their ways to fire and water more easily
when we try to understand why.
To hide an
envy or a rotten character behind a slogan of ‘oh, well, it is the best my
ancestors could make from me’ is atrocious. It is a defeat and in this we
reveal intense fatalist sadness in denying change. It is like saying, ‘oh my
Sun sign is Lobster, so you know I am doomed to snap at everyone’…
We can always
be better, change is always possible, new knowledge brings to us new perspectives
and quite often new tools – the problem is always about the willingness to
change, the willingness to silence those complaining ancestors, those guilt
ridden and victimized ancestors that inspired you to make the bad choice, to be
in the wrong place at the wrong time. We all have them. They live in Mothers
and Fathers perpetuating a dysfunction that denies you happiness in your life.
These ancestors are not the best of what you can be, they are forces that
should be accepted and acknowledged – but not invited in – because sometimes we
celebrate the evil of an ancestor by denying its influence in our life – and in
this we start working a peace with the past. This ancestor can be revealed in
forms diverse, a trauma, sadness, a negative pattern, a mode of anger or
aggressiveness. Anything we are that
holds a negativism might be about you being the one given the power and consciousness
to solve some ancestral shit and stop perpetuating it and be the change that
appeases your ancestry.
Because we
are not a result of the love of ancestor, we are a result of the anger and
resent of our ancestors, the compassion and wisdom of our ancestors, the love
is ours to understand and forgiveness is ours to give to those who made us and
to all those who surrounds us.
The whole
idea of having ancestry is not about glorifying anything. It is about
understanding where you came from, so you can make a change, betterment or
continue what was always good.
These things
are so simple, so simple that it is hard to take notice, because while the
world is burning, we tend to lose focus on the dots and pawns, the molecules
and first breaths that makes up beginnings and continuations. We lose focus on
ourselves as we direct all attention to whatever else that has a movement and
motion outside of us.
And in this
amazing act of turning to the other, so much is about the world at large, we lose
our selves and get disillusioned with all the evil and shit we see, witness and
experience. So often we get drawn into this and we give back what we see and
experience as a negative reaction born from our good heart. It is a horrible circle,
a circus of disgrace and yet we stay there, perpetuating those inklings in ourselves
that stems from ancestors that seek only iron and clay and makes us sad and we believe
our selves to be that sad, hardy resistance we don't want to be anymore.
Like sad,
hard and uptight is what we want to be… I believe we all seek happiness, fulfillment
and purpose, no matter how dark, drunk, depressed or disillusioned we might be.
I believe the root of change lies in acceptance and commitment, in realizing
that you are what you are because of those who came before you, because if you don’t
like what they made you, in this realization you can alter the current of your life and be you as a knight or dame in truth and of truth, and not a figurehead or puppet in your own
life, but the hero in your own life that came to bring a positive change.
To realize
that I am such and such because of this and that – this is always only the
knowledge you need to understand how you came to your position, to understand is
not fatal, it is to realize a crossroad... it is to realize the presence caused
by the forces that are tied to your feet, arm, heart and eyes, namely those who
came before you. But just because a pattern of dysfunction is realized in this
heritage we are not condemned to repeat it, rather, know your story so you do
not repeat it and perpetuate what was good in your legacy, because it all lives
in you as the living ancestor of what you are, love or regret, hatred of
compassion, forgiveness or feud is always left to us to choose...